The New Year

• Posted on January 3, 2010 at 1:56 pm

The holiday season is finally over.  From November to December is a time of  equal amounts of family bonding, sweet moments and stress. 

This year I didn’t have the funds I usually do.  So, I didn’t celebrate Christmas in the manner I am accustomed.  When I got divorced my ex husband gained custody of our beautiful fake tree with the pretty sparkly lights at the tips.  All of my ornaments are with the tree. 

Luckily, my ex husband and I are on good terms. So, I will be getting my ornaments back.  There are some made from my son and they have sentimental value.   As for the tree I will say goodbye.  Fake trees are an easy buy.

Even without the tree and my ornaments Christmas would not be the same this year.  With the new custody agreement I get my son for Thanksgiving and his father has him for Christmas.  It was my decision to have it that way since Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday (besides my Birthday.)

So, without funds, a Christmas tree, ornaments or a child this Christmas was looking to be pretty scarce and somewhat dissappointing.  However, with a little bit of creativity and some optimism Christmas wasn’t so bad.  Presents and cards were sent to the appropriate people.  I spent the day with my family cooking a feast and eating so much I had to be rolled out the front door.

Okay, I didn’t eat THAT much but I could have and I wanted to. The food was made with love and I was in good company.  Though, my son wasn’t here to celebrate with me I still had a good time.

This year was tough.  I felt like everything I touched turned to ash. It was the year of false starts.  Also, this was the year of letting go. I was forced to release some old habits, old wounds and set some things straight.

Next year will be different.  I will be able to build this year and the money will come in generously.  My slate is clean.  Or at least as much as it can be.

Though, I will buy a new tree and get my ornaments back.  Though, I will have money to buy more and lavish presents on those I love.  I will always remember this year because I realized that those who love me are there unconditionally.  That I have true friends and family.

That is something that I will cherish forever.

I don’t make New Year’s resolutions.  It seems a lot of pressure to live up to.  I have my vision board and my short term, midterm and long term goals to remind myself of what I hope to achieve.  I like to see how things progress naturally.

In February will be the start of the Tiger Chinese New Year.   The energy of the Tiger will surge forward in great bursts.  So, there will be progress this year for better or worse.  I am excited to see how it will turn out.

Cheers to lessons learned.  Cheers to the New Year.  May it be prosperous and success and full of love.

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