Monkey Brain and Manifesting

• Posted on February 19, 2010 at 4:15 pm

I am a list-maker. It’s because I have a constant flow of thoughts running through my head and they are all vying for my attention. Just recently an astrologer interpreting my natal chart told me that I have “monkey brain” – a term that fits so well that I had to laugh.  He told that I have too many ideas and that I need to focus on a few at a time.  To write the others down until I’ve finished the projects that I am already working on.  So, to offset my “monkey brain” I make lists and I carry around a notebook writing down ideas as they come.  I figure as long as I get them out of my head and put them someplace safe I can come back to them later.

I have lots of ideas for my blog written down in my notebook and one of these days I promise myself that I will make my posts more structured more focused.  I’ve got all kinds of things to say.  However, when it comes down to the actual writing of this blog I like to sit and start writing free flow to see what comes out.  It’s somewhat cathartic for me because it gives me real insight into what I am actually thinking about and what I need to work on.  But also, I think it helps you, the reader, to find insight into your own life by living vicariously through mine.  At least that’s why I read blogs and other posts that have a looser, more intimate, feel to them. I want to know the inside – the guts – of the person writing.  I want to know what really makes them tick. I like the rawness of truth – at least the perception of it from the standpoint of the writer.

So, the ideas stay in the notebook or they morph into something different as they filter from my head from my finger onto the white space of my word processing program.  Kind of like my projects as I project them out into the Universe to see what comes back.  My perception of the the idea or project is never quite how I envisioned it because of the singular qualities of my thoughts.  They are one-dimensional in the way that they are only streamed through my idea of perfection, my idea of fulfillment.  The Universe is multi-dimensional and mutli-faceted as every living being projects out their ideas in a steady stream of energy.

My idea becomes changed, more practical as it is immersed in the holographic spectrum of reality. Due to this, the more I become aware of my part in manifesting prosperity or abundance or happiness or goodwill, I realized that it’s not just about words on paper or pictures on a vision board.  It’s about living and demonstrating. It’s about becoming a holographic being and seeing reality as the past, present and future.  It’s about realizing how our silver thread of projection intermingles with every other living being and harmonizing with the energy of what we are manifesting.

Most of the time that takes change.  Great change in belief and in action.  It takes self-awareness and the willingness to move beyond our fears. It’s about letting go of our preconceived notions and having faith.  Though, those seem like simple enough concepts on paper it’s not an easy thing to implement in our patterned routine of everyday life.  We are conditioned from our parents, from others who have had influence on us, from our personal experiences. And even though we desperatly want change many of us don’t want to have to remap our brains or look at our patterns or face the shadow sides of ourselves.  I know that I don’t.

People around me have always told me that I am honest and that I live by my ideals.  That I am extremely self-aware and seem like I know what I am doing.  When I hear this about myself I chuckle because I realize that the facade has been working.  I realize that people really do see what you project and don’t look much closer than that.  It’s a simple idea, really.  When I teach or have to speak in front of an audience most of the times I wear heels.  There’s a simple reason for that.  It makes me feel taller.  Especially when others are sitting down.  I am standing over them.  I put my shoulders back and stand tall.   I use hand gestures and I look at people in the face.  These are all things that exude confidence, but it’s an illusion.

You wouldn’t know it when I am on stage, but I hate public speaking.  I hate putting myself out there.  I am an introverted writer and I have to really work at talking to people.  My saving grace is that I speak from the heart and I pray that people see that and resonate with the message so they forget to look deeper and recognize that fear surging through every column of my being.

I have studied body language and watched other speakers.  I have taken public speaking classes and have taken enough psychology classes to know what confidence looks like.  I know that most people don’t look past their first image of you.  Not a lot of people dig that deep.  So, the facade usually works

It proves a point about manifesting prosperity or happiness or love or abundance or whatever you feel you lack in your life. Usually, we have an understanding of what an idea is suppossed to look like.  We know what wealth is suppossed to look like.  We know what love is suppossed to look like.  And when we do our vision boards or our affirmations or our manifesting we usually do it from the premise of what it’s suppossed to look like from our colored perception of it.

But what if our perception of it is wrong?  Do we know any prosperious people?  Have we taken the time to get to know them?  Do we know any happy couples full of love for each other?  Have we talked to them to know what they feel?

Sometimes our idea of love and the reality of love are two different things.   I hear it all the time.  People come up to me and explain that they have been doing their affirmation.  They have their vision board.  They’ve cleaned out their closet to accomadate another person.  They’ve left one side of the bed open for another individual.  They’ve written down the traits of their ideal mate and he simply hasn’t come to them.

All of the ideas above are awesome and they are necessary steps toward finding the love of your life but there is a component missing from the equation.  We aren’t realizing our holographic existence in the Universe. W e are manifesting love from the singular focus of our own energies forgetting that the person we are attracting has their own singular energies as well.  Those two realities have to merge somehow.  We can do that through ideologies.  But it’s easier to comprehend if we can actively recognize what love feels like.  If we an actively understand what loves does to our chemistry and how it affects us.

If we can love ourselves and understand how love makes us feel that we are actively projecting love out into the Universe.  We all know from the law of attraction that if we are truly projecting love that is what we are going to get back in return.  However, if we are saying we want love and we are talking about wanting love but we aren’t actively recognizing what love is than how are we going to receive love?

The same applies to prosperity.  We can say we want more money and abundance in our lives.  We can say that we want a new car. But what actively are we doing about it?  How are we resonating prosperity into the world?  How are we recognizing what prosperity feels like?

I know for myself, I am learning this lesson the more and more I try to live and demonstrate a successful, abundant life full of prosperity and joy.  I realize that many of my ideas are just that – nothing more than words writing down on paper.  “Monkey brain” at it’s finest.

However, the more I get to know myself and I realize my holographic identity in the Universe the more I have noticed that I am truly getting what I desire from my life.  I am finding more happiness in the projects that I am doing and the ideas that I am manifesting because they are manifested actively and with dimensional purpose.

My grandmother once told me that love is not a noun, it’s a VERB.  I think that sums up the point of my post in one little sentence.

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